GO ON AND FLAUNT WHAT YA MAMMA GAVE YOU!
In the last few years I have been focusing on my maiden and on my wild woman expression. The ‘maiden’ archetype has been a journey back into my heart and the ‘wild woman’ has been the death of the “pretty girl” for me.
During this time, I’ve somewhat shunned my slut expression because before Dancing Eros, this part of me had been so corrupt and misused. I’d been using her to weave a web and manipulate others to get ‘stuck’ on me.
I didn’t want to be seen as sexual anymore, I wanted to be taken “seriously”, I didn’t want to be misunderstood, I also wanted to rid myself of my addiction to being the “best” and the “sexiest”. My addiction for external validation, leaving me feeling hollow and not truly seen. It has been really healing for me to just step back, chop of my hair, explore my depth and explore being the wallflower instead of the centre of attention.
But last night I realised something, I LOVE being seen, I love shining my light and I want to celebrate myself and not have to apologise for being who I am and looking the way I look.
Its all very “cool” and very “in” to celebrate your flaws and be like “I’m superior to those shallow women” and less acceptable to say “fuck it, I’m super hot, look at me”!
At its root this all comes down to my relationship with power. Because there is no question that sex is fucking powerful! And I have been afraid of my own power. Afraid that I will get drunk on it and loose myself and be judged for it.
So my declaration is, “I can be trusted in my power, I trust myself in my power, so fuck it, I’m super hot, look at me!”
– Alejandra Nicolazzo